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Waiting {15/52}

As the sky turned from blue to black, she watched as the storm rolled in, and simply... waited....

Have ever you found yourself waiting for something? Maybe your waiting for something to happen in your life. Waiting for the next big thing... a turning point in your life. I think it's something we all do from time to time. We think we'll be happy once we get that promotion, or move into a new house, or a new city. But I've come to realize that it's not the destination or the goal that makes us happy. Because once you've reached it...then what? I believe life is all about the journey. And once you realize that, then you can learn to be happy in the moment. 

Since I started this project, I've experienced an emotional roller coaster on a weekly basis. I start off with an idea and as it develops, I get excited, almost like an adrenaline rush. Then, I'll sketch the idea and show it to Henry so we can plan the shoot. We'll wait for the right weather and run out and shoot. These are the days I feel bravest. When we go out into a public setting and do something really weird like pose randomly or flail about like a mad person. That's when I feel like I can conquer the world. Then I go to edit. And I realize...oh crap, this is harder than I thought. This is usually followed by the "I suck" syndrome. Eventually the image comes together though, and I get a feeling of euphoria when I see the finished image. Then I post it...and I wait. I wait to see what other people think. Will they like it? After all that, I crash and get a little depressed. Now what? What if I can't top that image or what if I don't get another idea? Eventually, another idea comes to mind though and the whole process starts all over again. It's a constant up and down, every week...and sometimes I wonder why I would want to put myself through that every week. 

But on occasion, someone will send me a message saying that I captured how they were feeling that week and it really helped them...and that's what makes it all worth it. And as much as I love seeing an image come to life from my imagination, I think it's the journey that really keeps me going. The process of taking an idea and turning it into reality. That's the part I love. 

So I'll leave you with this piece of advice....don't wait....don't wait for happiness to fall in your lap. Enjoy the journey...enjoy the moment...this one, right now...because we aren't always promised tomorrow. I might not ever get anywhere from creating these images. Maybe it'll never turn into a full time career, and if it doesn't, that's okay because at this moment, the process of creating is what makes me happy. And as long as it makes me happy, I'll continue to do it.

I'm not sure what my next project will be, so for now, I'll leave you waiting...

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