It's been awhile since I've posted and honestly, I haven't been myself lately, so I haven't really felt like writing. It's no secret that I suffer from depression from time to time and if you've read some of my more revealing posts like "Consumed by Sadness," then you know my past sometimes haunts me and I have random spells of melancholy, as I like to call it.
A few weeks ago, I decided to create for the sake of creating because I've come to learn that art really is great therapy. It always makes me feel better and I firmly believe it's better than any drug a doctor can prescribe, at least for me anyways. So after a couple of days of the inability to function like a normal person and sadly, crying at work (in front of my boss - how embarrassing!), I told myself to get off my ass and make something. So I did and this is the result.
The top image took two weeks to complete. It started out as something else and somehow morphed into what it is. I didn't have a plan for it. I didn't even have the energy to shoot something new, so the original image is from my archives from old shoots and I just played around with it until it turned into something new. It's very different from what I've done before and somehow it made me feel better. Honestly. I really do feel better, but it drove me crazy too. I usually have a plan for my images so this was just working on a whim and it changed a lot throughout the editing process.
The two images below are part of a three piece series that I came up with combining the primary colors with the primary emotions; anger, sadness, and happiness. I shot these in early June, but I haven'y managed to create the "happy" one yet because well... I haven't been in a blissful mood lately, but I think I'm finally getting there.
Anyways, that's what I've been up to lately. I don't like to write when I'm feeling down because I feel like there's enough negativity and sadness out there without me adding to it. But despite everything, I'm still optimistic about the future and I know there is always light right around the corner, no matter how dark it may seem at the time.