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Solitude {36/52}

This week, I'm taking a break from the imaginary world inside my head and going back to my roots with a classic black and white image. When I started photography, my focus was black and white, but when I started this project, my goal was to push myself outside of my comfort zone, so I decided to work primarily in color.

I felt like I needed to connect with nature again, but I wasn't sure if that was going to happen with this week's image because it rained all week. Fortunately, when I woke up yesterday, it had finally stopped. So I threw on a dress and ventured out to this field near my house. This is the first time Henry didn't get to tag along and help, because he had to work. So I was on my own for this one, hence the name "Solitude". 

When I stepped out onto the field, I was not prepared for the journey ahead of me. The ground was sopping wet from the rain, but it was hidden by the tall grass. So when I took that first step, I was not expecting my foot to sink ankle deep into muddy waters. I guess I really should have anticipated that, but I was too excited about the dry weather to give it any thought. I stood there for a moment, not sure what to do. Should I head back or move forward?

Well, you aren't truly living life unless you are moving forward. Right? So I trudged through the tall swampy grass until I arrived at this lonely oak tree out in the middle of the field. It took some time, but I managed to take this self portrait with a tripod and a wireless remote. There was something very freeing about being out there on my own. Honestly, it reminded me of when I was going through my divorce a few years ago, which is the hardest thing I've ever been through. It was terrifying to move out on my own after nearly 10 years of being with someone, but at the same time it was exhilarating. You really learn a lot about yourself when you go through something like that. I discovered that I'm much stronger than I ever realized and that it's okay to be alone.

I think it's better to be alone than spend your life being miserable in a relationship that is never going to work. Some things just aren't meant to be, but every experience leads you down the path to the person you're meant to become. I'm grateful for all the experiences in my life, good and bad, because they shaped me into the person I am today. And it's comforting to know that I can stand alone, in complete solitude, and come out the other side a stronger and better person because of it. Just remember, no matter what obstacles you face, take it one step at a time and you will get through it.    

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