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Self Discovery {18/52}

I had quite the adventure the other day, that led me to this story of self discovery. The chain of events that led me to this day started a few weeks ago when I had to go the post office. Yes, somehow the post office is cause for inspiration. Well actually, it was the road leading me to the post office. For some reason, I decided to go the one in Huger, SC. I don't know why, but I'm glad I did. As I was driving, I came along a stretch of road that was lined by perfectly spaced pine trees and a forest bed filled with lush green ferns. It was so enchanting and I knew then that I would come back to this spot and create a story here, but I didn't know what.

I thought about that enchanted forest for two weeks before I finally had an idea for it. I was feeling very overwhelmed earlier this week, which inspired an idea that might work for that location. So I took a little trip to find my forest and discovered a lovely dirt road to park and explore. Ironically, it was the same dirt road where we shot Runaway. It's funny, I didn't even notice these trees then, but I guess they probably weren't as magical during the winter as they are now. Everything is so full of life and green. It's really beautiful. 

After walking down the road a bit, I turned back and made my way to the car, snaping pictures along the way. At this point, I was really more "scouting the location" than trying to create anything. So, I figured that was good enough and settled into my car to leave, when I caught myself staring down this dirt road. I'm not entirely sure how long I sat there, as I wondered what might be at the end of it, but before I even realized it was happening, I had put my car into drive and was making my way down that road. As I turned round the bend, my heart began to thump as I imagined what I might find. What if there is an old man with a shot gun at the end of this road..... yelling at me to get off his property. I didn't let that stop me though...my fear was overcome by curiosity. 

The curve led me to a long stretch of road that began to narrow as I drove deeper and deeper into the thick of the forest. The trees seemed to close in tighter and tighter, as I came to the realization that I've gotten myself into a bit of a pickle. I couldn't turn around at this point and backing up would be tricky because the road and the forest were divided by what can best be described as the beginnings of a swamp. At this point, all I could do was keep going. 

Thoughts began to dance in my head again as I began to fear the worst. What if this road goes on forever and I never get out of this forest! Then another startling vision began to form, as I imagined a big black bear standing in front of my car. My heart thumped louder and louder, until suddenly....the road widened a bit. I could see a clearing ahead and as I crept along this road, my mouth dropped as the scene began to unfold before my eyes. There was something about this tree that seemed almost otherworldly. It was almost like a character of its own....with its own story to tell.        

I don't normally share the before pictures, but I had to with this one. This is straight from my camera, completely unedited. It's gorgeous on it's own, but I wanted more. I wanted to tell a story. And that was when I realized....I am not a photographer.....no, I......I am a visual story teller.             

I realized that day that, through this project, I have learned so much about myself. I've learned that I'm braver than I ever gave myself credit for. I learned that I am capable of accomplishing anything I set out to do. I am not trained to do any of this. In fact, I'm a college drop out. I have never taken a photography class and everything I do, I taught myself. I'm a firm believer that, if you are passionate about something, there is nothing that will stand in your way. Passion..... is...... KEY. 

I'm so thankful I started this project. And although it's been really tough at times, I have learned so much in doing it. There are some days I want to quit...somedays, I feel like I'm failing....then there are others where I actually feel like I did something amazing and worthwhile. If there is nothing more that comes out of this project than to learn who I am, then it was worth it. I don't know what the future will bring or how long I'll be lucky enough to live my life, but my hope is to leave something behind that is long lasting....something that creates some sort of impact in someone's life. I know I'm not the best artist out there, and that's okay, because no one can tell my story, but me. And I tell my story from the heart. 

Thank you, for taking the time to read my stories and follow my creative journey to Self Discovery....

Dani FishComment