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Mysteries of the Heart {35/52}

When I started this project, I didn't fully anticipate how difficult it would be. Honestly, when I first started I was most concerned about coming up with 52 different concepts, and all in a row. Which if I'm being totally honest, is NOT an easy thing to do. Anyone out there who has attempted this type of project knows what I mean. At different points throughout the project, you have this ligering fear that you'll run out of ideas. Which is totally natural. But I've found the hardest part for me has been time. There are a lot of ideas that I'd love to tackle, but there just isn't enough time in a week to get it done. 

Sometimes I feel like I'm in school again. Working all day, then coming home to study until I'm eventually too tired to even keep my eyes open. If you've ever worked a full time job while trying to go back to school, then you know what fun that is (insert sarcasm here). I guess in a way, this project is a year long self taught program. 

You know, it wasn't that long ago that I had very little faith in myself. I was.... unsure. I feel like I've come a long way since then, although some days I lose confidence. But you know how that is.... Some days are better than others. But as trying as all those things can be, I think the absolute most difficult thing about this project has been writing this blog.  It's not always easy to open up and be honest about things, then send  it out into the great unknown, not knowing who's reading your thoughts or worse, wondering if anyone is even bothering to read your thoughts. 

I guess I just needed to open my heart and talk about this experience for a minute. And I wanted to thank you.... YOU, the one reading this blog.... for taking the time to read it. I really do appreciate it.... more than you know. And to my husband.... who is hopefully reading this too? Thank you...for always supporting me, even though it may seem like I'm having a love affair with Photoshop at times. I love you...I hope you know that. 

Anyways, sorry for the long ramble. Next week I'm attempting something a little less technically exhausting (I hope) and going back to my storytelling days. So for now, this will be the last one in this mini series of "close ups" that I've stumbled upon. I think I'll definitely be exploring this weird side of my brain in future projects though. ;)

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