Daniella Fishburne | Madame MadFish


Letting Go {1/52}

I firmly believe that everything happens for a reason and as I look back on my life I can see the connection between certain events. If I had not moved to Charleston, I would never have met my husband. If I had not been so unhappy at my job at Bank of America in Charlotte then I might not have been motivated to quit and move to another city. Which looking back, I must have been really brave or completely nuts because I quit literally one week before the bubble burst.  I had no job prospects and only a few thousand in savings. But I moved to Orlando anyway and somehow, I managed to find a job during the darkest part of the great recession. One year after that, I took a leap of faith again and moved to Charleston, again with no job prospects. I'm so thankful that I took those risks though, because if I hadn't, I wouldn't be the person I am today. I wouldn't have met my husband and I wouldn't be on this beautiful journey of self discovery through my art.

So I'm taking a leap of faith again, this time with my art. My style is changing and I'm embracing this new year and the changes that are coming with it. I've had this particular image in mind for quite some time and I found myself at the beach Sunday morning with the perfect setting before me. My husband's band had played at a local beach bar the night before and we went to pick up his drums the next morning. The scene was absolutely magical as the fog rolled in off the ocean. I told my husband about the idea I had and he said....let's do it! So we rushed to find a birdcage, stopped by our house to pick up my camera and change, then headed back out to the beach.  

He took pictures as I stood in the freezing ocean....yes, I stood in the ocean in January! And I froze my tookus off! But you know what they say...you have to suffer for your art! I wish we had taken pictures of the onlookers faces because they surely thought I was nuts. Their expressions were priceless! But I didn't care, I was on a mission. And I think it was worth it. I really like the way this image turned out and I think I needed to create this image this week.  I'm making a drastic change from street photography to fine art portraiture and I realize that some of the images that I am planning to create might not appeal to most people, but I have to follow my heart. So I'm letting go of fear....letting go of doubt....letting go of anger and pain...and opening my heart to new possibilities, thereby setting myself free. I don't know where this road will lead me, but I do know that every time I have followed my heart, I ended up right where I needed to be. So I've decided to start my 52 week project over in order to focus on story telling through self-portraiture. I hope that you enjoy the images to come, as well as the stories behind them.

From the bottom of my heart, thank you for taking the time to read my blog. I sincerely appreciate your support and hope that my images touch your heart in some way.  ~ Daniella