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Broken Dreams {41/52}

Some dreams are not meant to be. Sometimes one dream must be broken in order to make way for a new dream. In my 20s, I always thought that I would someday have the joy of watching my belly grow with life. I loved babies so much that I wanted to become a midwife and was studying to become a nurse. When I turned 30, I finally decided to go to a fertility specialist after years of trying with no success. My heart was broken when the doctor told me that I couldn't conceive and as I watched my friends share the joy of their pregnancies, my heart broke a little more. It was a very difficult time in my life, and every time I saw a baby, my eyes would fill with tears. I felt like a part of me was missing and feared I would never be whole.

Shortly after that, my marriage fell apart, not just for that reason though, there were many other factors contributing to the failure of that marriage. And if turning 30 wasn't difficult enough, try throwing in infertility and a divorce! Needless to say, it was a rough year. 

That was three years ago and now I finally feel comfortable opening up about it. Looking back, I realize that everything happens for a reason and I'm thankful for the path that I'm on. My previous marriage was not a healthy relationship and I know in my heart that everything worked out for the best. Now, I'm married to my best friend and have two wonderful step-sons to share my life with. I feel like my life is finally complete... I feel whole again. And even though this image has an air of sadness to it, I am no longer saddened by it, because it has helped me heal.

I know now that my path was meant to go in a different direction. If I hadn't been through all of those hardships, I would not be creating the art that I am today. Honestly, I don't think I would be an artist at all. Everything that I've been through has made me who I am, and as I venture through this unpredictable journey called life, I know I'm exactly where I'm supposed to be. 

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